The Stranger in my bed

Every night I go to bed and wonder, ``Will this be the night`` The night I go to bed and have another tonic clonic seizure. It is annoying because somehow I feel like I am not complete. Like there is something not right. Something that needs to be fixed. You know how you feel when you give your shoe to a cobbler to mend. He returns it, you put your feet in and then you feel like there is something that he did not do right. You cannot at that moment tell what exactly is wrong, but as you wear it, day in and day out, that discomfort increases until one day you have your Eureka moment and alas, you find that the sole was filed a little to low to one side. That is how I feel. I feel like God tweaked something a little to one side and I am the result. My Bible tells me I am `fearfully and wonderfully made`. If I am so wonderful, then why do I cherish the odd night when I sleep till morning with no interruptions? Why do I cry myself to sleep some nights because I have just had enough? You know what makes it harder? The trying to be strong. I am not strong and I do not want to pretend that I am. I am lost sometimes, scared sometimes and completely confused some other times. It is the pretending to be strong that drives me nuts!

Love is NOT Over rated

Hi dears,

I have been so caught in my everyday life that this part of it has suffered. Well, I am here now. This past weekend, I spent some time with my husband's family. It just helped me understand certain things.

1. Love is NOT over rated
2. Getting older does not diminish the quality of love
3. Love involves being honest, open and true
4. You do not love people simply because they are members of your family.
5. Love never stops hoping for the best.
6. When you believe that divorce is part of life, it makes working on your marriage too much work.

I feel blessed to know these things and I hope that I bless someone with these truths. Life is so full of uncertainties that the only thing we are sure of is here and now. If we do not make it count, what then are we living for?

Take the time to make the people that matter in your life know that they mean a lot to you. Give, give and never stop giving. Let go and LOVE.

hugs and kisses...